My boyfriend's friend is but another disillusioned (and delusional) Korean man out there who has a serious problem, and gives meaning to the Korean expression "live to your fraction." He's one of the many single, depressed Korean men in k-town perusing from bedsheet to bedsheet after club to club during the weekends, feeding scantily clad "Grade-C" (because "Grade-A" ktown girls are supposed to be higher maintenance and takes more effort) women excessive shots of Crown until they happily saunter off to the ritualistic noraebang facade and then stumble to his k-town studio. It's one thing if he is enjoying the "life" as he lives it, but he is k-town hoe prowler by weekend and depressed cynic by weekday (and by daylight), embittered by his state of singledom, sneering and muttering smart-ass-yet-utterly-depressed half-wit comments of sarcasm to any sign of warmth and mirth shared by couples around him, complaining.
Complaining that there are no "good women" out there, and that he will never get married to a decent girl and no woman will love him for who he is and all the desirable females of this world are already taken and he is doomed into a dark life of singledom or being married to someone who does not meet his standards.
Yet his standards are as follows: a woman that is tall, beautiful, full of character, smart, witty, fun, Catholic, God-loving, well-educated, career-minded, good cook, current events savvy, glowing with happiness, good-natured, understanding, and has heart of gold. In other words, the type who will passionately fight for issues important to her, appreciates goodness in people, bakes cookies every week and still loves having sex two times a day.
Being the girlfriend of one of his best friends, there used to be a tacit possibility that I might help provide this goddess of perfection to his surely deserving hands. What I fail to understand is how his self-destructing vicious cycle of weekend distractions and repelling pessimistic attitude will attract the woman of his dreams to him, and how he believes only she with those characteristics above is worthy of him. As I have faithfully singled out my female friends, all the "cute" ones are either taken, have too many issues, and all the "smart, funny and fun" ones are too average-looking and lack sex appeal.
What is it? Could it be the classic case of being raised as a Korean Boy (with a capital B), deemed as the "best" and "best-deserving" throughout childhood by his faithful mother, who has brainwashed him throughout life to think he should always be First, and given the best toys? Or is it a clinical sense of disillusionment that he can just sit and be assured that his caliber of lifestyle, mental state and personality is inversely proportional to what quality of woman will come his way and fall in love with him? What could it possibly be?
Well, I've finally given up, and I do wish him the best, but I'm wondering if this mental state and disillusionment is a trend that many us see elsewhere.
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